Realization: I Should Have Bought Stock in Charmin


At 37 weeks pregnant, I’m convinced I’m keeping Charmin in business.  I’m also convinced I should have bought stock in their company given how much money I spend on their toilet paper each week.

With Baby Beetle being right on my bladder, I am running to the bathroom every ten – thirty minutes.  It has actually gotten so bad that I don’t leave the house unless I have to because I am afraid I won’t be able to find a bathroom while out and about.  Isn’t that sad?

The good news is that we are in the home stretch, and I won’t be pregnant forever.  So for a few more weeks, I will just be hanging in there.



A Thank You To Baby Beetle’s Aunt Casey

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I would be neglectful if I didn’t post about my twin sister and soon-to-be-aunt to Baby Beetle, Casey.

I could go on and on about how much her love, support, and encouragement throughout this pregnancy has kept me sane, centered, and comforted but of course, that is a personal discussion between she and I. I assure you it has happened on numerous occasions and will continue to be vocalized.

However, I did want to show off her party planning skills and abilities.  After showing off the woodland baby shower, which was planned and decorated by her, I feel the need to brag for a moment.

As a doting wife, mother of a 16 month old, pharmaceutical sales rep-by-day, patient friend, and loving sister, I honestly don’t know where she found the time to craft and plan such a spectacular event.  This point in-and-of-itself shows how loving and caring she is and always has been. I will seriously be indebted to her for life. xoxo

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From the overall vision to the tiniest, minute details, she thought of it all and executed everything perfectly.

Here are the details she outsourced:


And here are the some of the sweet details she crafted, which are beyond impressive:

details3From banners to photobooth masks to a diaper cake, every single detail was perfect, well-intentioned, theme appropriate, and hand crafted!  I mean, even the water bottles had cute little labels to show the cute factor. Perhaps she should reconsider her career choice.

What do you think?

Love You Forever Sister,


I Lost My {Tech} Job Due to Pregnancy

Okay, I didn’t exactly lose it.  I know where it is.  It is on California Street in San Francisco, CA.

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Also, I wasn’t fired.  That would actually make the scenario a lot better given unemployment options.

The truth is, I resigned.

Clearly, I need to clarify.  The reason I say “lost” is because I do feel the emotions of LOSS.  I loved my job. I loved being a professional woman in the tech space. I loved the responsibility and the steep learning curve of wearing a lot of different hats in a small start up. I’m actually still in the grieving process of accepting my new title as, Unemployed.


So what happened?  To make a {very} long story short, here’s the jist!  After telling the CEO of our 4 person start up that I was 10 weeks pregnant {back in early July} and a week after I started the job, the environment, attitudes, and workload completely shifted and the bullying started.  After coming home night after night crying myself to sleep and a health scare caused by the stress of the situation, it was time to throw in the towel and admit defeat.

After all, isn’t bringing a baby into the world safely in a healthy, supported environment my number one concern?

There are so many details and parts of this story that would infuriate you.  And yes, I didn’t do everything right either so I must admit a little blame and take responsibility for the outcome of the situation.

However, something is very wrong when the CEO compares my early pregnancy to him walking out and getting struck by a cable car causing him to be disabled.

NEWSFLASH: Pregnancy isn’t a disability.

But wait, is this legal?  The answer is, yes.  Even in the great state of California, a company under 5 employees is favored by the state and government, over the pregnant employee.  As the CEO clearly stated to me, “You don’t have any rights. Well, you have rights as a human being, but not as a pregnant woman in the workforce.”  Well, I guess that settles it.

Let me tell you…job seeking while pregnant is nearly impossible.  It’s time consuming, stressful, and somehow you are always “overqualified” for the job. Weird.

So all of this has led us to be a one income family in San Francisco, which is difficult…nearly impossible.  And also, very VERY stressful.

So what’s next? The truth is, I don’t know.  Now that I’m 37 weeks pregnant, my mind is focusing on welcoming a healthy baby into our home, instead of finding my next job.  However, when April 2015 rolls around, I will be back on the job market and reconsidering my love for the tech industry, that is for sure!

Take care,


36 Weeks Pregnant: The Final Stretch

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Although this last month of pregnancy has brought along fatigue, exhaustion, sleepless nights, and acid reflux, I’m trying to soak it all in as we will soon be adding a little one to our family of two.

Believe it or not, the third trimester has been the most enjoyable one for me as I feel a true connection to the baby and my changing body.  While it’s true that I feel like a beached whale/bed stain as I spend 75% of my day laying in bed watching movies, reading, napping, etc., the end is near so I’m coming to terms with the laziness.



In this final month, I have crossed the line of being social, fun, and comfortable to being a hermit who can’t even bear the thought of wearing clothes.  If I make it out of my robe, it is an accomplishment.  To say that I am uncomfortable is an understatement.  I can barely walk because of the extra weight, I can barely breath because of Baby Beetle’s position, and I can barely last 5 minutes before hitting the bathroom as my bladder is non-existent.  However, I know that this is completely normal and just part of being pregnant, therefore I won’t spend the time or blog space complaining.

In saying all of this, the time has come to give credit where credit is due.  My husband needs a shout out!  Beetle has been an amazing partner by stepping up to care for our dogs, keeping up with the housework, and checking off items on the honey-do list to make up for my lack of contributions.  Thank you for all that you do!

Be Well,


To Do(ula) or Not To Do(ula), That is the Question


The answer (for us) is Yes, get a doula!

As we focus on a natural, unmedicated birth to welcome our baby into the world, the support, knowledge, and comfort of having an experienced support person for the labor and birth is a no-brainer.

We hired a great twosome that we feel safe and comfortable with as one is a hypnotherapist and the other is a massage therapist, in addition to being doulas.  We lucked out with their specialties as the belly massages + visual imagery have been a big help in the final month of pregnancy.

If you are considering hiring a doula for support before, during, and after your birth experience, I would recommend doing your research and interview a few to get an understanding of what you want and think you will need during labor.  For instance, if you want a cheerleader who is going to keep things upbeat, positive, and cheer you on, then make sure your doula fits the bill.

Good luck!